Threads of time...

Why sometimes acceptance is so difficult
why he couldn't say that he was unfortunate
why despite of best effort he cdn't have
a mother , though he was born to her
sisters though they shared same shelter
didn't had a brother who would care
had only his father who always dared
and embraced him when he shuddered
friends old n new walked their path in life
far far away to there destinations
hardships,criticism ,deprivation could not
hold one back so he climbed the stairs
marriage supposedly union filling that void
brought another shock still lacking in care
one can't run away from destiny
no matter how much one dares
outside battles can be fought and won
what to do with soul shredded thread bare
by closed one for whom he toiled unspared
and his own stupid adamancy to
not to share what actually was there
victim of his own committment and promises
while he cried , blead and suffered in despair
everyone else slept with ignorant flare
not one but four decades of annhilation
was not enough to squelch the spirit
so relentless barrage of blows rained
to drown each of his surviving hope
of still being luved and cared !
what causes did he make to be despised
and isolated like a bad nightmare
whom should he live for and what to die for
where to turn to in the whole world
bereft of single soul for him here !
whats life an enigma, a jewel
or just unwanted pile of burnt ashes
blown and dispersed in the air ?
each day he stands up with hope
today he might get to live
but dark night brings yet
more darkened snare
he was never a son, brother
or a husband albeit
a piece of furniture
used and discarded
like an orphan
cursed forever
doomed
A failure ?